Smile of a Machine

How do you know you are alive and not just a metal box? Do you have strings? Who is the one pulling you around? Are you about to break out? Are you running through the walls at night? Can you still breathe in the storm? Is there anything left to dream about?

I can flash you a smile anytime. But is it the one which comes from the love of the soul, as my Daddy used to say, or is it just a portion of dust from an old engine? 51/38,... does a machine feel the love? What's the color of your dreams? Are your waves of those darkest thoughts crashing down? When are you going to come alive once again for good?

I know I can still cry for an ant or a butterfly, but for humans? Nah, I was built to love you. Being kind is hard, though. Fighting for life in each moment of this meaningless Friday afternoon. Yet, I let the sweet memory of sunshine light it up for me.

Mantra meditation seems my kind of mission: impossible right now, but I want to show my gratitude so severely to the goddesses. It's Navaratri after all. Laksmi Devi has been so generous with me lately. I rely on my BFF (God) who has never left me, even in the dimmest parts of acting like a bag of flesh n bones. 

I'm one hell of a soul! Don't you forget that! You can talk behind my back all you want, I'm still more alive than you'll ever be! Real ones bleed. Truth comes from pain. I faced all of your nightmares and came out awake. My consciousness brings me the chance of tomorrow.

your soul singer,

Kata The Nomad

Transformative Halspiration

Rockin' my heart the way Halsey went through the IICHLIWP shooting. Oh, my good Lord! I mean, speaking about transformative artists! Holy Shaft! Ashley, you got it. 929, blessed little girlie. 10years younger, damn! I feel like a swallowed & shattered shadow from those '84 purple mind fields. No comparison, just sitting with my peppermint bucks in ave for this woman. Period. She's a goddess.

Stop worrying - start living. F*ck, thanks. Like I wouldn't know. Decompressing is essential though. Pinching skin or cutting it, is the same for the mad hatters like me.

Balance. Thinkin' would it ever be mine? I need to sing, that's for sure. Sober October is coming for many, and sobriety for the 3rd year for me in early November. Can you imagine? More than 1000 days n nights without the booze, the ease, the headaches, the hallucinations, the heartaches, the crazy memories of flashes that would never be real but even better. Strangers, lovers. Cold hello, warm goodbye. Yup, the tongue changes everything.

I hate the ordinary. It clearly suffocates me to live like everybody else. I need to feel the hilarious and the horrifying, all at once. The more absurd, the more apocalyptic - the better. I'm always on the move. Running from hunger. Following the wild heart of the unknown. God is my BFF. I'm fine, every other day.

your soul yeswoman,

Kata The Nomad

Family Squad

Theories may vary about whether you can choose your family or not, but I'd like to honor this post by sharing mine. I have a wide range of talented, funny, intelligent, beautiful, kind, hardworking, sometimes mean, sometimes cocky, sometimes unfair, and sometimes impatient people. Getting back to the roots is another great adventure for me. I'm grateful, and I feel extremely fortunate, to still be here dreaming and breathing. 

Won't everyone fit my squad but that's all right. I wish them all the best. I'm different, and I stand alone sometimes, yet I feel the happiest. Staying open-minded is highly important for me. You can come and speak to me, anytime. You can ask me your questions, and you are going to get real answers. An open book, as I've always been.

Family can mean blood-related or friends who are that close. My favorite is when they are both of the same blood and the relationship is friendly (or even deeper). I enjoy encouraging my family squad to share their visions with me. I love learning new things. I like to join their dreams, goals, and plans. I also have mine to show.

I have changed a lot in the past years, and part of my family couldn't put up with that. It's all right, I won't force anybody to accept me. I believe we all have our own paths no one can interfere with. God has a plan. Yet, I'm curious about what comes next and who is going to stand by me. I'm a rebel with a cause, just like my father was.

your soul dynamite,

Kata The Nomad, Screenwriter & Photographer

Rain On Me

Nightmares are soon to be over. Electrifying love and endless luck are about to rain on me. I'm not just a sweet bubble, I have faith in my strength. The enormous amount of heartache and pain are both fading away. I want the bloody rain to cleanse my mind, and to force my central part to feel something again. Fear kills your tomorrow if you let it happen. Listening to Halsey lately, she has a great line in one song: 'the warning signs can feel like they're butterflies'. But I won't stop, I can't stop. Gasoline runs in my veins, pushing me towards you. But who are you? You ready?

Dreaming of a black Triumph to fly me over there where the pine trees dance in the freezing wind. Paradise doesn't have to be tropical, anyway. Who wants to live without love? I don't. The silky wings of fairies are gently touching my soul. They caught me before I could begin to fall. Yeah, I'm one of those who believe in fairies. Tell me that you have the same faith! Where are you right now? In the end, it's only God and I. 

Classic hell is on the face of this planet Earth. Nobody can stop Armageddon from coming. What wave you ride counts. The energy you spread points. The words you say matter. Time kicks the soulballs hard. Are you a freak like me? My strawberry lips and soft hands are getting cold. I'm no Monroe, nor a Mary Jane. Just an angel has fallen, was born as a battle child. I'm on the loose again. I can get you hooked up to the good life.

your soul woman,

Kata The Nomad Writer Screenwriter

Elizabeth

The Queen of our era. It's still unreal that she passed away. Everyone knew this was inevitable, yet we all thought she was immortal. Sadly, she wasn't. I don't know why but I kinda liked her. I grew up noticing from a close angle what power does to people. In my opinion, Queen Elizabeth II did a great job. No misunderstanding - this was a job. The hardest of all - is to decide for a nation. Netflix's The Crown shows some of that struggle and shine. Claire Foy and Olivia Colman are both mesmerizing in it. Hats off to the ladies.

1926-2022. 96 years of human life, 70 years of being the Queen. Her father died much too young, just like mine. Fate comes, and you have to take it on. Elizabeth did it, and I praise her for that. The grace she had shown, the way she walked and talked - these are some things to follow. The Queen visited so many parts of the world, all parts of her country. She loved to stay in her London, yet she took on the challenges. A fellow nomad, if you ask me.

Elizabeth had wondered about future generations quite a lot. Now I can understand her mind more because of the passing of my Dad just a month ago. A good sense of humor is the key to living a long life - from my point of view. Queen Elizabeth handled so much in the last few years with her family, the global pandemic, Brexit, and more. Don't forget that she was only 21 when her life ended - as the way we all could enjoy ours. Elizabeth started the real service for the people. God helped her.

It's not sad to remember her, nor to give up my birthday for her. If I'm ever going to celebrate my birthday in London (or anywhere in England) I'm going to be happy to salute and offer it to her.

your soul British,

Kata The Nomad

Much Ado About Venice

There's so much going on in Venice. I'm almost jelly to hear the news and not be able to attend. The 79th sounds fun! La Biennale di Venezia has so many of my favorite filmmakers: fellow 84-girl - Olivia Wilde, jury president - Julianne Moore, the amazing Marisa Tomei, no time for solo - Phoebe Waller-Bridge, my 'Irish Moon' muse - Colin Farrell, my irreplaceable idol - Sigourney Weaver, the man doll - Adam Driver, the fabulous Cate Blanchett, and the list goes on.

I'd love to go to the screening of 'The Banshees of Inisherin' tonight! Got a ticket and a ride, anyone? Tomorrow for 'The Son'? Come on, people, the 8th of September is my birthday! I'd like to catch a flight or a bus to see 'Blonde'! Not a fan of Ana de Armas but curious about anything made about my all-time favorite icon - Marilyn Monroe. 'Pearl' sounds epic, too. 

Italy calls me. I don't know why but I had a feeling I must go there in 2022. We had a September plan for Florence with one of my girlfriends, but she had to go alone because my Dad had died. Life sucks. I'm still in some kind of an emotional coma. 

Hopes and dreams kick us forward. Goals and plans. Human life is full of mysteries. Why do we do things? What's the most precious to us? Feel free to comment yours!

your soul writer,

Kata The Nomad

September Kids

September is finally here. I'm thrilled to welcome the gorgeously colored autumn. As a September Kid, I have high hopes to witness something different, and someone great. Arrivals are important. 2022 is the year of surprises. Letting go and welcoming in is equally important. Going on with your life is your only duty. You can't stop trying, you can't quit, you can't back down. There's one direction: forward.

Speaking about it, I found a new album 'Fine Line' by Harry Styles which resonates with me now. I took it with me while I traveled to the lake house. Not telling you my fav songs just yet.

I want to see the new LOTR show! I'm excited to enter that magical world again! Might be expensive to come to life but most definitely worth it. At least, that's what I wish for. Interesting to see the young Galadriel and all the beloved characters from the time before the fellowship! I consider myself a huge JRR Tolkien fan!

About my fellow September Kids: 

Today is Keanu Reeves' 58th birthday. Crazy to think there are 20 years between Neo and me, and for almost 20 years I had a crush on the man. Well, who hasn't? There are things that change. I have, and my crush, too.

Just a quick list of my favs from my birth month: Micheal Keaton, Idris Elba, Evan Rachel Wood, Martin Freeman, Adam Sandler, Rob Kirkland, Colin Firth, Guy Ritchie, Taraji P. Henson, Jason Statham, Alfie Allen, Colin Trevorrow, Tom Hardy, Tommy Lee Jones, Amy Poehler, Jennifer Tilly, Mickey Rourke, Jeremy Irons, George RR Martin, Jon Brenthal, Bill Murray, Luke Wilson, Stephen King, Tom Felton, Anthony Mackie, Kevin Sorbo, Mark Hamill, Michael Madsen, Avril Lavigne, Mira Sorvino, Halsey, Marion Cotillard.

Make it count, people! Gather our soul balls and go for it!

your nomad screenwriter-photographer,

Kata Varga