Not For Everybody

Finding peace with who you really are. Not for everybody. Most people live out lies during all of their lifespans. Take a deep breath. Yes, right now. Right where you are. Just close your eyes and give you  - yourself back. Nothing else matters. You are a soul, not a body.

I want to heal. Feelings that were held so long - time to let you go. The pain was the fuel. Being hurt was the reality. Biting was smiling. Everything went from right to wrong. Pretending and bending the truth was how I used to survive. The day came when enough was enough. No more guilt and shame for being alive. For being me.

I can kneel before god with a pure heart. That's why I can stand before any of you. I can walk tall and stay humble at the same time. Tough year this one has been. One more month to go - I still can't believe how fast it went down. I felt dead tired, overused in each way a human possibly can be: mentally, emotionally, and physically. 

I have to find peace with myself and all things I went through. I'm broken but willing to learn. I won't run away anymore from who I really am. I live as I understand. I won't say goodbye, don't expect me to. I won't just fade away, either. I'm going to be as loud as can be. I'm going to make the liars deaf with the bloody truth ringing inside of their ears. My voice is going to tremble the core of their hearts. No place for you to hide from me. The time has come to face the light. In the darkness, there's nothing to see. 

your spartan buddha, your warrior monk,

Kata The Nomad