Flashdance...What a Feeling

Part of me will always be a dancer, no matter what. I love music so deeply that my body can't resist moving in the right direction. I used to join hip-hop classes and any kind of modern dance I could put my hands on. My inner nerd might be shy, but my body is built up like a flash dancer. I've got a strong passion for rhythm. 

Got the sad news that Irene Cara had passed away. Amazing voice. Hats off to the lady's talent. That song in that movie took my breath away! I won't ever forget her name! The same goes for Jennifer Beals. She is epic awesome! As an 80s kid, I was meant to dance for them. Thank you, gorgeous and bombastic ladies for giving us the torch.

Flashdance - Maniac is my other secret favorite! I encourage all women to dance their pain away! This is one hell of a great medicine. Tested and true. It's funny how I love both singing and dancing, yet I've only tried out dancing in front of many people. I was never afraid of showing off my moves. It feels incredible to connect through just the figure.

Insanity is refusing to let it all out. I have to dance again! Anyone wants to be a partner in crime?

your Flashdance girl,

Kata The Nomad

Advent for Bruce Lee

What does 'advent' precisely mean? Can anybody celebrate it, or do you have to be Christian to follow this sacred inner journey? 

Advent means tranquillity, contemplation, giving donations, solace, purity, and faith. The first candle has to be lit tonight. It symbolizes belief in god. Trust has so many faces, just like god. You don't have to be religious to join Team Light. God loves you anyway. 

Convictions may vary. You can say whatever you want, but it's pretty clear that we all like Christmas and these advent weeks. 'December days' are the best for everyone who has a pumping machine (aka the heart). This is the time to count your blessings and plan the giving back part of your existence.

Bruce Lee would be 82 today. It makes me sad, especially this year when my Daddy died. I have to accept the natural way of things. People come, and people go. Time is the only thing that has a limit for everyone.

Advent gave me credence, and I'm going to earn it fairly. A part of me has always been a Lee. The legacy of a man lives on in his family's actions. The way the loved ones think, talk, dream, walk, look, and create. I'm a mixture of a warrior soul and a monk. Don't ask me! I wish I know the answer. This is how I had to live my life. Those two sides of one soul fought with each other, then I realized I can be both. This is how I breathe now.

Faith in god and in myself pushes me further each day. I was born with a purpose. I exist to fulfill a plan. Advent is my time of peace and meditation. Talking to god and listening to Him. A winter wonderland awaits. An inner paradise with tons of snow. I love it every time. Dreams do come true. Magic does happen. Miracles are for real. This is how I live.

your soul spark, your fairy godmother,

Kata The Nomad

Not For Everybody

Finding peace with who you really are. Not for everybody. Most people live out lies during all of their lifespans. Take a deep breath. Yes, right now. Right where you are. Just close your eyes and give you  - yourself back. Nothing else matters. You are a soul, not a body.

I want to heal. Feelings that were held so long - time to let you go. The pain was the fuel. Being hurt was the reality. Biting was smiling. Everything went from right to wrong. Pretending and bending the truth was how I used to survive. The day came when enough was enough. No more guilt and shame for being alive. For being me.

I can kneel before god with a pure heart. That's why I can stand before any of you. I can walk tall and stay humble at the same time. Tough year this one has been. One more month to go - I still can't believe how fast it went down. I felt dead tired, overused in each way a human possibly can be: mentally, emotionally, and physically. 

I have to find peace with myself and all things I went through. I'm broken but willing to learn. I won't run away anymore from who I really am. I live as I understand. I won't say goodbye, don't expect me to. I won't just fade away, either. I'm going to be as loud as can be. I'm going to make the liars deaf with the bloody truth ringing inside of their ears. My voice is going to tremble the core of their hearts. No place for you to hide from me. The time has come to face the light. In the darkness, there's nothing to see. 

your spartan buddha, your warrior monk,

Kata The Nomad

Date the Lucky Numbers

20 - the age I lost my virginity, 22 - the age I had been already married and filed for divorce, 11 - places I lived in on my own and professions I've tried during adulthood, 22 - pieces I wrote /books & scripts/. That's the date of today: 11/22/2022. Funny way of god saying there's a reason behind everything. I can feel it. I've always known the greater power. God's girl. God's soldier. God's rebel. I am.

Why to expose ourselves to others? What's the point of being seen if everybody walks over you blindly? Can you remain silent when you should be screaming? 

Green tomatoes. What's the use? Who likes the bittersweet taste of volunteerly solitude? Who wants to experiment with pumpkin and honey? I do. I'm still up and waiting to mix those two.

38 is just a lucky number, or is it? What pairs with 38? Is there any? Never mind, I love to rock in my white Tee and blue jeans. Barefoot is my favorite fashion. Western boots and high heels also fit my beautiful pair of feet. 

Why am I sharing all these? As my Dad told me 'let at least one person know the truth'. Well, duh. One person must be reading this mindfuck keyboard diary. Are you still there? I'm bad at finding the balance right now. I'm in pain but this is the state which helps me to create. Writing is bleeding on paper - for real. If you haven't done it, you have no idea. Love the delicate shadow of each nightmare born into the raw reality of me.

Why to fall in love with a creation when you can fall in love with the creator?

your soul spark,

Kata The Nomad

Holiday Spirit, For The Record

Adult life begins when you can admit that you asked for this. All of it. Wonders and the crap, all yours. You came down here to enjoy, well, duh! Hunger is lurking around, and the neighbors' thirst for your blood is rising with every laughter you let out in public. The best times are those with your dog in the garden where there's only play. Nothing is right, so turn left! I'm with you on that. Odin runs by my side, which gives me an enormous amount of power through the good old pump machine.

Why is human life so confusing? I would give away all of my 'holiday spirits' for a chance to shoot a movie with Christian Bale! He is pure perfection in transforming into any role he plays. One of the greatest actors of our time. Hands down. That batsuit has never felt too tight. Funny thing how the brownest brown stars in 'The Pale Blue Eyes'. The deepest life you can find dances in his eyes. The pain grows into the most beautiful scars. Shooting stars, who we are. Magic runs in our veins, and no one can deny it.

I've become so numb. This life feels like a thin white line of mistakes. You can't do it right. I'm way too aware now for this shitshow. Never played by the rules, yet I'm forced to willingly cut my head off. I've tried too hard maybe. Pushed me, put my trust in people again, and reinvented myself after each and every fall. Thought 2022 is my time to shine. Keep on going is the only way, no breath for a kind rewind. No seconds for complaining. Being brave and bold is my answer. I'm way too honest about this. The words just fell out. Nah, do with it what pleases you!

My goal is to help you get higher, and reach the point of no return! Let them take your old life away! We were all born with a special purpose. Say what you want, do what you meant, and dreams do come true. You won't see me fade away! I'm just fading in. Watch my movie with getting one step closer to the edge! 

your shooting star,

Kata The Nomad Writer

8 Billion

Planet Earth has 8 billion humans. 8 billion souls with a rare gift, a chance to do better. We are one of them. As a writer, my duty is to reflect on everything around us. I have to open my mouth (aka my keyboard) when I see, hear, feel, think, touch, sense, or taste something above the average. The extraordinary is my business.

I believe the population growth has to slow down. Our planet Earth has a maximum capacity, and we are already passed that. I was relieved when I read about a male actor's experience (39 years old, 1 year older than me) on society's/family's pressure to have had children by now. I don't have a kid (or kids) and don't want to be forced to make a decision.

Life is full of miracles. At least I live it that way. Every day is a new start for me. Anytime can be good for a new beginning. I love learning and evolving. I think I can be a Mom for many without giving birth to my own flesh-and-bone baby. Motherhood is way more than blood to me. You can love and nurture so many souls, which gives you the exact experience of being a mother. 

Another 39-year-old actor made an interesting exploration of the idea that we all can combat aging and discover the full potential of the human body. There's no secret to fighting illnesses with natural medicine, performing better with just a little effort in taking care of ourselves and slowing the aging process with inner and outer routines. I welcome all those who dare to share any kind of method. I want to call attention to how to live this life consciously.

your soul spark,

Kata The Nomad

Death, Music & Meta

You can never be sure of the time. Death comes for everyone. No, I'm not obsessed with the topic because my Father died in early August this year. I write about it again because I heard the news of much younger fellas passing away. Transitioning, as they say, is now. It doesn't have to be COVID all the time. It can be anything. Death is inevitable. 'The wonderful spontaneous world of rock'n'roll!' as Le Bon shouted Saturday night. It's true. He meant it another way, yet it can be used here. Life and death are both rock'n'roll.

I wondered whose songs were /are/ the soundtrack of my life? 

Can you name one singer or band whose songs were /are/ yours?

Who is the greatest performer, singer, or songwriter to you?

Funny thing to confess, but my teenage years were quite much about Eminem and rapping his lyrics. Well, not all of them, but the relevant ones. I can still clearly remember that night when '8 Mile' came out, and I went to see it with my baby brother. We shouted the 'Lose Yourself' lyrics after the lights turned up. People thought we were crazy or high. I won't ever forget that feeling.

As I grew older, my taste in music became separated from my brother's. I used to listen to P!nk, Avril Lavigne, Aaliyah, Tupac, Linkin Park, Korn, Marilyn Manson, Michael Jackson, AC/DC, Nirvana, Papa Roach, Rolling Stones, Tina Turner, U2, UNKLE, Apocalyptica, Machine Head, Three Days Grace, The Prodigy, Rammstein, Rage Against The Machine, Rob Zombie, DMX, P.O.D., Fear Factory, Static X, Il Nino, Depeche Mode, Coal Chamber, etc. I was a rocker-rapper kind of child.

Now, at the end of my 30s, I'm more open to folk music, rock music, and sacred sounds. Mantra meditation became a part of my daily life. I see and hear this world with different eyes and ears. My soul has awakened. It's a thrill and a great ride. Indian and Nordic cultures bent with my own. 

Social Media let us communicate over borders. It offered me dozens of opportunities to work 'abroad'. Our generation was born with it - technology has risen above our fears of the 'Skynet'. I was against FB/WhatsApp/Instagram, but now all Meta, yet it gave me new possibilities. This world is no longer that world. You can shut yourself out but that just makes things harder for everyone around you. 'Offline is the new luxury' - indeed. If you are on the run for a job, a new crush, or anything creatively stimulating - then you have to join the circus. Being careful of the feed & stories is a must, though. I think the key is balance. Keep your stuff under a minimum of control. Don't overshare! Don't turn into someone you are not! Keep it real. As simple as that.

your soul nomad,

Kata The Screenwriter

Rocky's November

I wanted to be in the cast or crew of 'The Equalizer 3' so bad! I'm a huge fan of the previous two parts! Denzel Washington as Robert McCall is one of the greatest characters and performances I've seen in action/thriller cinema. Most definitely delivered the vigilante justice I've been seeking. Antoine Fuqua is one of my heroes. I'm praying for another part of this sequel that I can join! Fingers crossed.

Writing about heroes made me think of the first champion I looked up to: 'Rocky Balboa' aka Sly Stallone. I wasn't even a thought when the movie 'Rocky' came out in 1976, neither at the 2nd nor the 3rd. I was 1 year old when the 4th 'Rocky' hit the movie theaters. My parents were not exactly boxing fans which often made me wonder where does my mad love for the sport comes from. (Mama sweared by that it was not the postman.) I grew older, and in my teens I decided to become a filmmaker. I was born to be a writer so it never really was a question what my role would be. I needed to fail many times to clear that goal in my mind.

Screenwriting is a lot different than giving birth to a novel or any kind of a book. I've been accused of writing my books like a script, so that pushed me even closer to the final decision made this year. I can not escape my fate as a screenwriter. I have visions so clear that I must put them down on paper or keyboard. I also want to try myself in the writer's room, never been co-writing with anyone.

Back to Rocky. I have a strong faith in Sly. He is a lionheart like me. He is a man of courage, been through a lot. We are the underdogs who made it. Well, technically I'm in the making process but I'm already making progress. Hehe. If this makes any sense. I won't give in. I keep punching until the day I die. I'm going to get there, eventually. Those who never stop can achieve something great.

Writing requires dedication and patience. Success won't come overnight, and you are not really in it for the reward. Writing itself is the prize. I can't not write. I was born with it, maybe it's destiny. Hehe. You all know what I mean.

I'm having daydreams about some idea to bring to life with Sly for Rocky's 50th birthday in 2026. That would be epic. Up until then, 'Tulsa King' is one of my most awaited shows this end of the year 2022! November 13th it's on! 

your soul boxer kid,

Kata Varga 

Freelance Screenwriter